Karen’s Blog

I hate it when I’m weak. Something terrible happened at work today. I got scolded for nothing. No,wait… it’s worse. I got scolded for something I did not do, but was accused of doing. And instead of fighting back, I broke down and cried at my workplace. I so wanted to go back and f*** her upside down, but I’m too pai sey to do it when I’m crying. Stupid right??

I was accused of giving smelly face when I din even know what had happened to make that someone so unhappy. She came in front of me, started complaining about work and I was just looking at her blankly when she said, "You think I want to ask you to do it?? If I can do it by myself, I would have done it! Ni bu yao gei wo nian se kan!!" and storm off after that… My reaction was as follow:

"WO GEI NI NAIN SE KAN!!!???" Than…. that’s it.

The teargates opened…. Unwillingly….

Kaoz!!! I could have storm back into her room an give her a good one!!! What, she stress I’m not stress?? I also have piles of work n my table and endless things to do. I’m doing her share of work too cos she claims that she doesn’t know how to. The worst thing is I did not even give any smelly face AT ALL!! I dun even know what smelly face she was toking about! But me, of all things, I had to cry at this moment. SO angry with myself. I’m so weak…. I seriously do not know how to quarrel. Have you ever heard of people crying even b4 they start to quarreI? Haiz, haven’t open mouth already lose liao. I might seem to be very fierce and loud, but when it comes to the real thing, emotions is usually the one to call the shots. I bring work home to do too. But seriously, I dun hv to let the whole world know that I’m working.

Anyway, she apologised later and explained why she said that. But to me, the hurt has been done. The respect that I have for this personis greatly discounted, if not gone. I mean come on, who on earth living in Singapore is not stress? Even the roadsweeper is also stress when the streets are so dirty and the drains are choked. But please have higher EQ. Dun go around losing temper on your colleagues. I spend more time at work talking to you than to my mother at home. I dun understand why people want to make life difficult for each other when they still have to face and work with that person everyday. Unless quit loh…

Ya, so unhappy, quit your job, find a rich man than you can enjoy life at home. hm…. that applys to me too doesn’t it…? =P